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| Title | 1991-1006-Augies-Apartment-Raleigh |
| Recorded date | October 6, 1991 |
| Location | Augie's apartment, Raleigh |
| Number of tapes | 2 x 90 |
| Other recorders audible? | Video. This may or may not be audio extracted from the video |
| Alternate versions exist? | |
| Source | SH purchased, white cassette, hand lettered |
| No. of MP3 files | 4 x 45 min each |
| Total time | 3 hrs |
| Transcription status | Extensive notes Jan 18, 2015 |
| Link to distribution copy | http://distribution.direct-mind.org/ |
| Link to PDF | http://distribution.direct-mind.org/ Or try http://selfdefinition.org/rose/ |
| Published in what book? | |
| Published on which website? | |
| Remarks | |
| Audio quality | |
| Identifiable voices | Bart, Augie, George B., Fred, several others |
| URL at direct-mind.org | https://www.direct-mind.org/index.php/1991-1006-Augies-Apartment-Raleigh |
| For access, send email to: editors@direct-mind.org | |
| Revision timestamp | 20150118151119 |
Notes
Date is on cassettes
From purchased white cassettes, hand lettering, SH collection.
This is different from Augie’s apartment 1993
R mentions that there will be a lecture tomorrow.
Dec 25, 2013 - note: Where did this info come from? In 1991-Unitarian-Church my note says the tape is missing. – SH
File 1
And then the back end went over the high bank, running board, took a tree out
Took the power wagon and winched it to a tree
Farm back in West Virginia
Could never afford anything but a junker.
Going up 29th street hill. Messina, Labowitz, Osgood, got
Hose to carburetor broke, gas on fire, going down the hill, flame out of back of truck
Now going down the hill. Nightclub there, new asphalt driveway. Kid yells “fire”
Turned off into asphalt, steered back onto highway, down steep grade
Telephone poles going faster and faster
Dave Messina was a good Catholic, saying his prayers before he died, talking to Jesus
Larry was a Jew and didn’t have any hope of immortality, bravest man in the car
Got off in a ditch, dragged the bottom of the car on the ridge, threw a wheel in a deep ditch, finally stopped
Augie: All the bodhisattvas evacuated
Tractor trailer stopped, had fire extinguisher
Augie: went back and stripped the car
Went back, got the gas out of the tank
Lecturing in Pittsburgh
Two or three places, lecturing every week
Carried 4 spare tires, 4 gallons of mixed antifreeze in the winter time
Baloney skins
Two flat tires, pulled off, bridge, concrete railing, car jacked up, tractor trailers 70 mph..
It was fun, I was doing what I wanted to do for the first time in my life. Nothing else mattered
Psychology of the Observer picture, Myrtle Beach
Aviary
Statue, Huntington, husband and wife were sculptors
Enormous oaks
This was my idea of the spiritual life of man
Each person trying to chop himself out of the materialistic life.
(Somebody comes in)
9:28
Takes them too seriously, didn’t used to (cooking)
Paul Wood – I often wonder if he’s still alive
Couldn’t tell his age
I was married at the time. Sometime between 1930 and 1950
Bob Martin very deeply interested in all these movements
He was initiated into Yognanda
Dingle, wrote Across China On Foot, phony book. Never left the country.
Augie: How did Martin meet Paul Wood?
Bob Martin Texas, west of San Antonio, laboratory, Tom Slick
Experiments, breathing suppression, Interplanetary travel, wnted to get a guy into suspended animation,
14:00
Tom Slick interested in Buddhism, etc. I never met Tom Slick
Paul Wood had an experience
Devout Christian
God observes the fall of the sparrow
Started talking to himself, shipped him back to the states
Car dealership in San Antonio
mental agony from it; it worried the life out of him
So he takes the Lord’s Prayer, of course it drove him nuts.
prayed for God to kill him
he was out for ten days.
In those 10 days he was free, travelling
When he woke up he realized he was immortal
Bob got him to come up to Akron
Crazy Guggenheim
His eyes were hooded, white. He would be waking down the street with Bob Martin
Battle of Gettysburg
Had a wife and some children, she shoved him out the door
He rented himself a little room someplace
Moved from there to Oklahoma
picked up a new wife
about 25 years of age
in Akron, whole lot of officials from Firestone
Bob Martin had 10 kids
these guys were all questioning him
“When you’re working for God you don’t have to worry about food, or anything.”
I believe that
Somebody gave him a car
“I don’t worry about it; I think I’ll be supplied with whatever I need”
In kitchen had an onion and soup bone
One of the ranchers came in with a quarter of beef
by the time he was ready to starve, something would turn up
Martin, “Paul, I wish you hadn’t told that.”
I said, “Bob, shut up.”
She came in, she’s passing out the coffee.
She never missed a drop. ‘He is my lord and master.”
I knew that he made the trip
he wasn’t selling anything
Ability to go to almost any time in history
Swedenborg had this
Augie: Experience identical?
No. Identical in that there was no time
They will all be slightly different
What did they learn?
akashic records
he didn’t need anybody of authority; knew that he was eternal, immortal. I wonder what’s in between
person enters a bardo
that’s all they understand
Buddha was asked – what happened to people when they die, they’re different
joke, Protest and went to heaven, St Peter met him,
“What’s on the other side of that wall?” “Don’t talk so loud, that’s the
Albigen system is nothing more than challenging definitions
Paul Wood, “It’s not God’s will that we should be ignorant.”
rabbits and chickens programmed to jump
Augie: thought that Paul Wood – was a vector
He went through a tremendous argument with himself
too late for definitions
when you die and you realize you’re conscious that’s all that matters
tremendous joy
Wood didn’t care if people didn’t believe it
his sincerity was there
looks like a fat man who’s been hit on the head with a skittle
preconceptions
Q. Did he know you had an experience?
Never talked to him about it
have to have an overwhelming desire
he died
I tried to move around but I came back, woke up abruptly
paper on the Lord’s Prayer
line by line
worked it back and forth
I wrote a letter, “I don’t sin”
human being is a poor helpless animal
This is a relative world; we have good and evil
there is no good In evil. there’s nothing bad, everybody does the best they can
they’ve left you out of the nuthouse
he was happy
Albigen Papers is not a sweet talking piece of literature
I never talked to him directly
no two awakenings are the same
a lot of stuff is partial
person gets inspired
developed a faculty
Q. Every met anybody who’s experience was the same
R. I corresponded with some people
The whole thing about achievement is that you have to have a mad dog attitude
Buehler: sense of a moral code
I don’t to rock the boat
I always wait to give myself a period of time to see if score is settled by somebody else
Q. Franz Hartmann:
he believes in purity
Pure living. if your mind is impure it’s exceedingly materialistic
people interested in sea shells, smart rocks, channeling
entitles move in
discarnate entities
exposed nerve sheaths
that doesn’t mean a person who reproduces is not going to go to heaven
this body, what we are doing here, we are produced by someone or organization …
[break in tape]
[file 1 ends at 45:07]
File 2
00:00
the sand on the beach
terrestrial purpose for us being here
planetary growth
some esoteric speakers believe
Blavatsky
can’t be proven
complexity of the human brain
neurotransmitters, prostaglandins
these things work together, one affects the other
when I was in school they were observing electrons with shadows
when you tilt one way, something tries to tilt you back
Augie was running a tape, encephalitis
all they talk about is chemicals
but they’re missing the whole point
the mind affects the brain
train yourself to forget
how can we evolve from a little sperm and egg
DNA what activates it?
then the long term thing. What’s going on
you’ll see a plan even in international wars
06:00
tremendous fine parts, molecules, living cells
chemicals I neurotransmitters
Q. things you can’t explain
I will explain it tomorrow evening <<<<< missing talk 1991-1007-North-Carolina-missing-tape
Q. was your experience something was given to you?
R. You mean for being good?
There’s nobody out there but me
I went unconscious before it happened
either an automatic mechanism
I was allowed to come through
I knew that there was nobody but me
there are different ways of describing that
Q. Do you think you will go back?
I’ll be back, sure
Had a pain right here
thought it was death, stroke
Seattle, Washington
window was closed, went through the window
I was tremendously happy
I knew that I had won
I saw the human race
millions of people coming up the side of that hill
Three books of the Absolute
they looked like they were stupefied
Somebody showed me some movies
a lot of this was just indications
spiritualists believe there are different planes, causal plane
Adam and Eve
I’ve got a 10, 11 year old child
necessary to keep me harmless
[somebody comes in]
I didn’t see God
Q. did you come back with a clear idea of what to do next
I try to find words
got to pick words, they become material
to come back here I had to enter oblivion
Q. time and effort
R. I was back in hell. You don’t laugh when you’re in hell
bridge floating in cork
maybe somebody will fish me out
I don’t know how long I was out
have to readjust to life
church - knocked on the door
“Don’t you have any older priests here.
If I had a gun I would have killed him
Q. had you been planning to leave Seattle anyway
I had a compulsion to get iout of Settle
trip was like a fantasy
some homosexuals grabbed this guy when has was asleep
driver put the homosexuals off in the desert
everything I was seeing, there was a tremendous lesson
sitting behind the bus driver looked like a gambler
the lady stood up and leaned over the guy, vomited
he thinks he’s still asleep
the bus driver saw what happened
bus driver: you clean that man up
coming home? I was going to get close to the cemetery
Bob Martin, stayed at his house a couple nights
Bob knew what happened
later I wrote Three Books of the Absolute
his wife said, “Dick, I think you lost your ego.”
cancel out all the things you think you have to have in life
I was really amazed
Martin, Babcock and Wilcox – I wrote Three books there
read three books to him
weeping
“Dick, I love you. Will you marry me?”
had 10 kids,
we were always competitive
Q. stage everything beautiful
R. once more the beauty returns
Q. how does the world appear to you know
R. I have a feeling an insane man is watching it
I know that I’m insane
there’s a little hangover
Cleveland, ran into people marching down the street
they looked at me like I was crazy
50,000 Polacks from Parma going to the ball game
west side of Cleveland
Alliance, Ohio
this came over me
I’m still searching for methods
open people’s minds, Difficult because people are obsessed
on the brink so I could push them
you don’t get dividends right away
some of them are sincere
we take away a body and the confused mater, we are a vector in another dimension
there’s nothing wrong wit dying, but some forms of dying I don’t look forward to.
I’ve been happy ever since I heard about Dahmer
it takes determination to eat someone else’s biceps
tenderized him before he killed him
Q. certain aspects of depression
R. not only depression, you’ll go through hell
the devils will scatter when he comes out with that laugh
Q. before the experience
that was physical
sitting in a yoga position
farm, no fire, blanket Blavatsky
something had me by the nose, a mouse, channeling the warm air
shot a lot of holes in the baseboard
Q. emotional state prior to the experience
I don’t know what my emotional state is
Nobody will believe you if you talk but yourself
Q. certain combination of turmoil, pain
R. you’re trying to get the recipe, the ideal piece of cake. [
File 3
00:00
I knew I was dying
when I came back there wasn’t a bit of pain
I had help
Q. Do you think he pain was necessary
I think you have to die
Q. What was causing the anguish?
R. People like you. [laughter] rephrase that, will you?
Once all your chips are on the table, and you’re going to lose
I didn’t know I was going to wake up afterword
are you taping this
Q. do you think people dream
I call it a roll of film
more clearly than if you were awake
hospital, man dying of cancer
got to talking about death
your life is already on film
he said, “I need another roll.” I hope he got it
after death you move around
baby awakens from another dimension
would like to explore
another dimension, possible restrictions
I got dropped off the cliff
there are things you can come to a conclusion, philosophically
mental experience beyond a shadow of a doubt
when I went away to the seminary
priest came out
I kept staring at him
I saw him dead; he was a dead man right in front of me
“Father Philips is going to die”
Mother said, “Shut up.”
this is another dimension when a person is on the point of death
business partner 0’ house trailer Bridgeport, Ohio
she was hoping to win Binho
I said, “Uh oh, he’s going.”
this man talked to me through the hand
“He’s dying.”
“But he told me he’s dying.”
these kids shouldn’t witness this
volunteer fire department
he died that night
I had no doubt that it would happen
smell flowers around a house in winter
Ralph Dicker
later shot himself
the whole family died; I’m trying to think of which ones went first
synchronicity
this boy got so where he could smell the flowers
“Yeah, I can smell the flowers.”
under your mother’s picture
it wasn’t a week ot two, his son died
this epileptic appeared to his brother physically
Ralph called me on the phone
can you come out about 11:00?
all of a sudden somebody walks through the room
this is the exact thing he’d do every hour of the night
I don’t argue with it
I realize that I’m able to tough things that oethrr people don’t touch
Q. Do you ever get nostalgic?
R. I’ll have to think about that
Q. pull and push at the same time
We live in pictures of the past sometimes
Augie: our original fall from truth into relativity
It’s out there but you’ve got to go through yourself to get there
Q. celibacy
“Can I rub your belly and make a wish?” George Blazer.
the beauty of motherhood is very important
what counts is that sacrifice to the other party.
hate is poison
she went out to Arizona and got a divorce
she could have taken half my property but didn’t take anything. She took a suitcase
sex shatters you
28:00
Q. A lot of questions, what happens after you die
R. Anything mentioned in this dimension can’t be given <<<<<<from video
I felt that I was one with God
there would have been two of us
and that’s when I said, “I want to see the human race”
but I was testing so to speak
I asked a foolish question, got a foolish answer
there’s rue of creation that if you talk about them you mess them up <<<<<<from video
one thing you do is don’ brag about it
I was observing stuff but I didn’t have any argument
silly question gets a silly answer
I had heard the words
Bob Martin would say “samadhi”
If I had doubts about it, it would mean that I didn’t make the trip
wrong to be an orator
the reason
you fight your way through the door
there are people in this group that have the ability to go the whole way
start fighting, stop listening and start doing
I don’t think a person should go for enlightenment
get past ignorance
change your lifestyle
“leave vaguely” Augie: “I will take leave of thee:
were you talking about your death <<<<<<from video
life is vagueness
heaven has to be a happy place
Q. you talk about thinking ; I use sculpture, creating moods
R vanity
the art colonies are all full of degenerates
was up in the Catskills
Wake everybody up in the hotel
when I was a starving artist she kept me
she killed herself
last letter I got from him, she cut her wrists
beauty and dignity to them
firecracker went off in their head Jerry Dadds, artist, Lee Warfield worked for him
File 4
00:00
there are exceptions; there are good people
Q. they push their work in a certain way
R. yes, if they push
In DC? Thomas Cole. Four stages of man
1 baby in a boat, angel at the helm
2 virile man
3 stopping the waves
4 old man praying, angel coming back
Q. people in thr group talking about the work but not doing it <<<<<< from video
R. Well you could be celibate
keep track of your battle scheme
take a big step out of ignorance
I don’t believe in sitting down for the purpose of meditation
if you’ve got a faculty, learn to develop that faculty
I got Blavatsky’s books
wrap up in a blanket
books piled with data
tremendous amount of information
700-800 pages, loaded with wisdom
psychically inspired to write
Patanjali – the pure yogi
in Tibet before him [no, India - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kapila
Not Milarepa
Stop an army – Kapila
yogis could stop animals
Blavatsky wrote
In Tibet today, lift immense big blocks of stone, bowing horns
photographed this procedures
blow horns, chant mantras, blocks float up
Blavatsky, power of vril.
Guy in Florida, made the gates out of stone Coral Castle
he never talked about it either
how much power he had
a tremendous lot that people can do
but he didn’t say how.
this type of activity, don’t speak about it
that destroys the formula
in the Direct-Mind Experience, wrote formula, betweenness,
Q. why is the pursuit of knowledge a path vs meditate
None of the yogis who sat in meditation came up with an answer
the secret behind power is the use of it
Swedenborg, remark, people who quit breathing
I don’t tell you to pursue knowledge I tell you to provoke our mind to think
absolute answer with a relative mind
How to hear people, couldn’t, wouldn’t tell you
Norbu Chen
I won’t last very long
Reason Christ was killed
burnt himself out by lifting too many rocks
go to sleep, 101 things to do
act in silence, generate power in silence
I’m running out of gas
your direction has to be one of acquisition
what I want
meditation without activity is a waste of time
Q. each person has certain abilities
R. an analogy I can give you
action with thinking. Without fear of failure of hope of gain
have egoless, have to drive
like raising 20 kids
have to focus
there’s a power that functions in the formula
that education’s your muscle
but your priority has to be the other
you have to prove that to yourself
Q. you also have to eat
R. you also have to work
head chemist
I decided I don’t want to be a chemist
streptomycin
Denver Colorado, National Jewish Hospital
Q. so few jobs that give you freedom
R..everything’s miserable
have to get a few knots on your head
Augie: consternation on people’s faces
R. I don’t want you to try betweenness. One day you’ll discover it
Q. you’ve advocated against faith
R. that’s the paradox
and you better have it. You better fight for what you believe in. but you’ve got to be right.
Bart: Way to go Aug
R. I believe you should act o what you believe
and that’s the way you go
go with the flow winds up in the sewer
you’ll take a certain stand because you like it
I’ll drop the garbage
improvements in our philosophy
truth will make you free And it will. it can also get you killed
you’ll get revelations
these give you strength
celibacy gives real strength
by the time you get the ego developed, that’s the time you fall off the throne
30:00
Q. have you learned anything new, building on the prior
R. If I answered you I would sound egotistical
When you get control of yourself
power
power transmitted from one person to another
monkey needs contact with mother
realization that you’re safe
as of now you know nothing
chances are a billion to one
there’s something planned against all these possibilities
ketone enzymes
homo sapiens, from the scum on the water
[Fred comes in]
you don’t have to analyze
go so long without weakening yourself
you’ll know that you have power
look for ways and means of discovering what is unspeakable
education can be an ego
I knew I couldn’t work in a plant
I had the farm back there
I got the books
stimulate activity in the mind
books that are related
formula is very simple. ou take the first step <<<<<< from video
children will have very little spiritual chance
intuition is
invisibles and intangibles
sex education in school
you’re not going to have any celibacy in this country
we will become a race of dogs
they’re not going to protect the children
become as a child
that means purity
send her over to school, they tell her this is something you have to learn
entities that wanted to consume the human race
entities feed off human energy
sex energy
temptation is a mental message
they want the commodity
maybe we’re their food supply
Q. Moody, Life After Life
R. Because his whole life was drinking and whoring around
the masses are headed for a crude, animal existence
Congress passes a law
Don’t blame anybody in particular
Congress is basically educating kids that there’s nothing wrong
should teach not to hate it but to avoid it.
Q. Mr Rose, you speak about entities, they sound ike some little creature or something. I’m really not sure …
[break in tape]
[file 4 ends at
